Dr. Tony Ortega

Last week was rough, mainly because I allowed my inner saboteur to run rampant at times. My man pointed out something. It seems that I need reassurance when things are ambiguous. I shared with him the issues that happened over the course of 2016-2018 and how I am just now feeling like I am getting to the other side. . . In therapy yesterday, my therapist pointed out that these events did not occur to harm me but to put me on my path. That gave me pause as I looked at each of... the situations and was able to immediately point out, despite the pain, how it ultimately served me for the better. . . When I am happy, the universe benefits. I am choosing to believe that as this will lead to less of a need for reassurance. Namaslay. @themalecollection #mondatmotivation . . . . . . . . . #gay #gayboy #gayguy #gayman #gaypride #gaylove #gaystagram #gaymen #gaylife #gays #gayfollow #gayhot #gayselfie #gayfit #gayuk #gaycute #gaydude #gaybear #gaybeard #gaycouple #gayboys #gaymuscle #gayguys #gayjock #gayhunk #gaytwink #gaysexy #gayfitness See more

I interrupt the normal thirst trapping and the such to share a story of a cat named Logan. 4 years ago today, he was diagnosed with feline diabetes, something I did not know existed. When the initial diagnosis was given, I was overwhelmed with fear of being able to care for this animal being a single man. What has ensued has been one of the biggest learning lessons in my life. . . . He was 9 years old at the time and this cat gave me so many good times at a time I didn't thi...nk I could have good times anymore. He truly is a one of a kind cat. Yet, his ongoing care is costly and I have to make sure he gets food and an insulin injection every 12 hours. This required so many lifestyle changes but I did it because he is worth it. . . . 4 years later, thousands of dollars later and several hospitalizations later, here he is after breakfast this morning, living his best life. The greatest lesson this child gave me was the gift of unconditional love and how to truly love unconditionally. Thank you my king Logan for choosing me to be your dad. Namaslay. #thursdaythought #catdad #catsofinstagram . . . . . . . . . #gay #gayboy #gayguy #gayman #gaypride #gaylove #gaystagram #gaymen #gaylife #gays #gayfollow #gayhot #gayselfie #gayfit #gayuk #gaycute #gaydude #gaybear #gaybeard #gayboys #gaymuscle #gayguys #gayjock #gayhunk ##gaysexy #gayfitness See more

In chapter 7 of my latest book, #AreYouHereYet: How to STFU and Show Up for Yourself, I stated the following: "What IS known within the unknown IS the process, which IS the work and the result." Wow, are the words really hitting home for me these days. . . . I am in a place right now that there are a lot of unknowns. What does the future hold in some of these areas of my life? Is it worth doing all this work and potentially not get the result I want? ... . . . STFU, you know the work is always worth it. Sometimes we get the results we need while not always getting the results we want. So this is where I need to be right now. As always, I will do the work, although I might have a tantrum or two along the way. Namaslay @themalecollection . . . . . . . . . #gay #gayboy #gayguy #gayman #gaypride #gaylove #gaystagram #gaymen #gaylife #gays #gayfollow #gayhot #gayselfie #gayfit #gayuk #gaycute #gaydude #gaybear #gaybeard #gaycouple #gayboys #gaymuscle #gayguys #gayjock #gayhunk #gaytwink #gaysexy #gayfitness See more

#TuesdayTruth - I wrote about a concept in my second book, #AreYouHereYet: How to STFU and Show Up for Yourself (available on my profile), that when we are faced with the unknown, we need to reach for the knowns within the unknown. . . . When we fear the unknown, it's usually because we fear not getting something we want and/or getting something we don't want. Neither of these are absolutely true. Why spend any time sweating these things.... . . . Ask yourself, what do I know to be true right here right now? Then go from there. Namaslay . . . . . . . . . #gay #gayboy #gayguy #gayman #gaypride #gaylove #gaystagram #gaymen #gaylife #gays #gayfollow #gayhot #gayselfie #gayfit #gayuk #gaycute #gaydude #gaybear #gaybeard #gaycouple #gayboys #gaymuscle #gayguys #gayjock #gayhunk #gaytwink #gaysexy #gayfitness See more

#TuesdayTruth - In every 12 step program, the first step talks about powerlessness. I got very clear on something I am very powerless over, the voice of fear that exists within me. I call it the resident in my basement. ACIM refers to it as the ego. Rupaul refers to it as the inner saboteur. . . . Last week, the voice of fear took any spec of a detail that was objectively meaningless and made it into this drama in my head. I was knocked off center because I partially bought ...into it. For whatever reason, it was quite powerful last week (thanks Mercury in Gatorade). . . . At the end of the day Sunday, I saw that everything I was sweating was false and that what I truly want to believe was true IS true. What have I always wanted to believe in? That the universe wants to give me what I want. That's what I'll be hanging on to for this week. Namaslay @themalecollection . . . . . . . . . #gay #gayboy #gayguy #gayman #gaypride #gaylove #gaystagram #gaymen #gaylife #gays #gayfollow #gayhot #gayselfie #gayfit #gayuk #gaycute #gaydude #gaybear #gaybeard #gaycouple #gayboys #gaymuscle #gayguys #gayjock #gayhunk #gaytwink #gaysexy #gayfitness See more

#ThursdayThought - Today, just trying to be present to what is. Trying to practice surrender. Trying to practice being as objective as possible. So days go smooth and others not so much. . . . When things get rough, it's almost my default setting to think I am to blame somehow or that something bad will happen even if it has nothing to do with me. ... . . . So today, I will just be present to the normalcy of human emotions I know my worth. Namaslay. . . . . . . . . . #gay #gayboy #gayguy #gayman #gaypride #gaylove #gaystagram #gaymen #gaylife #gays #gayfollow #gayhot #gayselfie #gayfit #gayuk #gaycute #gaydude #gaybear #gaybeard #gaycouple #gayboys #gaymuscle #gayguys #gayjock #gayhunk #gaytwink #gaysexy #gayfitness See more

#TuesdayTruth - Rupaul refers to it as the Inner Saboteur. ACIM refers to it as the ego. 12 step fellowships refer to it as the disease. Right now, I am referring to it as that mother fucking vioce in my head that wants to start some shit when everything is perfectly fine. . . . I am being kind to myself today as I woke up cranky and started to look to look at things that are not ok. Well shit, they were okay yesterday. What shifted? That voice doesn't like when we are stabl...e and feeling okay. . . . So I am not taking things too seriously today. Doing things for myself that make me feel good no matter how small. I then remind myself constantly how good I have it because reality is, I really do. Here I am cuddling up with my unicorn-bear my man gave me for Valentine's. Namaslay . . . . . . . . #gay #gayboy #gayguy #gayman #gaypride #gaylove #gaystagram #gaymen #gaylife #gays #gayfollow #gayhot #gayselfie #gayfit #gayuk #gaycute #gaydude #gaybear #gaybeard #gaycouple #gayboys #gaymuscle #gayguys #gayjock #gayhunk #gaytwink #gaysexy #gayfitness See more

#MondayMotivation - I don't know who to credit this saying to but it goes something like this, "Mistakes are portals for opportunity." Well, tell a perfectionist that and I'm like, "I need to get it right all the time." . . . This weekend, I was plagued with thoughts of having made a mistake that I will be penalized for. Having had a narcissist for an ex, mistakes were often weaponised against me. Opening sharing my fears of making mistakes with my current boo thing was very... refreshing. . . . Like this pic, I can pick out all the things I could have done better to make it better. I need to sit with knowing I did the best I could at that very moment. If anyone objects to a perceived mistake in a negative fashion, that says more about them than it does about me. Namaslay. @sensationsgreen . . . . . . . . . #gay #gayboy #gayguy #gayman #gaypride #gaylove #gaystagram #gaymen #gaylife #gays #gayfollow #gayhot #gayselfie #gayfit #gayuk #gaycute #gaydude #gaybear #gaybeard #gaycouple #gayboys #gaymuscle #gayguys #gayjock #gayhunk #gaytwink #gaysexy #gayfitness See more

Happy 1 year birthday to my second born child: #AreYouHereYet: How to STFU and Show up for Yourself. So much went into the publication of this book however, sadly, it got caught in the wave of the emergence of COVID-19. This makes me very sad because it has so much potential. Some folks felt I departed significantly in voice and tone from my first book, however, the message of my first two books remains the same : You being your own ... guru, lover, friend, inspiration, etc. ...I hope that anything I have written has inspired someone to be the person they want to be with and that they are showing up for themselves. . . . Here are some pics from the amazing book launch event one year ago today, hosted by my queen, the indelible @cherylholequeen. This was my Oscar night and I know that the day my life flashes before my eyes, this night will be one of those memories I will see and smile from ear to ear. Special thanks to my amazing agent @literallyhelen and my lovely publisher @fab_publishing. Link to purchase in my profile. . . . . . . . . #gay #gayboy #gayguy #gayman #gaypride #gaylove #gaystagram #gaymen #gaylife #gays #gayfollow #gayhot #gayselfie #gayfit #gayuk #gaycute #gaydude #gaybear #gaybeard #gaycouple #gayboys #gaymuscle #gayguys #gayjock #gayhunk #gaytwink #gaysexy #gayfitness See more

#ThursdayThought - So funny that a memory came up on my feed from this time last year where I was telling myself (and y'all) to stop. Sometimes we need to just stop and just be. Well, I didn't do so great yesterday with that, lol. I had lost the lightning bolt off of my earring. I looked everywhere and could not find it so I figured it was lost in the streets of Brooklyn. To make matters worse, my guy said to me, "I really like that earring." Sigh. . . . I went to bed and had... a dream about finding the bolt in my house. I didn't give it much thought and did my thing. I had given up the search yesterday. As I jumped into the shower this morning, there it was in the tub. . . . Broader perspective to the story - sometimes when we want something really bad, we need to stop hunting so feverishly for it and just let it show up. I am happily reunited with my one of a kind lightning bolt earring. Namaslay . . . . . . . . #gay #gayboy #gayguy #gayman #gaypride #gaylove #gaystagram #gaymen #gaylife #gays #gayfollow #gayhot #gayselfie #gayfit #gayuk #gaycute #gaydude #gaybear #gaybeard #gaycouple #gayboys #gaymuscle #gayguys #gayjock #gayhunk #gaytwink #gaysexy #gayfitness See more

It’s been a pretty emotional couple of days for me. Don’t know if it’s the full moon or wtf. It’s been rough but consistently taking action that is in alignment with who I want to be is key. Reminding myself what I know yo be absolute fact is key. Staying in the present moment is key. Today, I received my copies of Breathe Magazine (issue 35) where I’m featured in an article about living in limbo. The universe has a great sense of humor. Thanks to my guardian Angel @literally...helen for snagging this assignment for me. Namaslay. . . . . . . . . . #gay #gayboy #gayguy #gayman #gaypride #gaylove #gaystagram #gaymen #gaylife #gays #gayfollow #gayhot #gayselfie #gayfit #gayuk #gaycute #gaydude #gaybear #gaybeard #gaycouple #gayboys #gaymuscle #gayguys #gayjock #gayhunk #gaytwink #gaysexy #gayfitness See more

You might be noticing that my posts have been somewhat non-thematic and/or way shorter. The reason being is that my bandwidth has been so much less for the past couple of months. Work has been crazy busy. I have been dating this amazing guy for the past 2 months. And my mother was ill for a bit and thankfully recovering. . . I have been needing to figure out my voice because so much has changed in the past year. I have stepped back from supporting others because I needed to ...be on my own to figure shit out. I needed what little remaining bandwidth I had to be focused solely on me. .. . Chatting with my amazing gal @ohheyjesssager , I threw out some ideas that all came together in the wee hours of this morning. So I think I have a plan. Watch this page for more amazing content. Namaslay #wednesdaywisdom . . . . . . . . . #gay #gayboy #gayguy #gayman #gaypride #gaylove #gaystagram #gaymen #gaylife #gays #gayfollow #gayhot #gayselfie #gayfit #gayuk #gaycute #gaydude #gaybear #gaybeard #gaycouple #gayboys #gaymuscle #gayguys #gayjock #gayhunk #gaytwink #gaysexy #gayfitness See more

Category is : Gay Muscle AHS Coven lerwks. Ha ha. Just feeling silly today. And also in a state of really appreciating the changes in my life that are a direct result of the work I do pretty much daily. It goes beyond the physical. I try to tackle physical, emotional, mental and spiritual daily. Because I am not just one thing, I am all these things. Namaslay. . . . . .... . . . . #gay #gayboy #gayguy #gayman #gaypride #gaylove #gaystagram #gaymen #gaylife #gays #gayfollow #gayhot #gayselfie #gayfit #gayuk #gaycute #gaydude #gaybear #gaybeard #gaycouple #gayboys #gaymuscle #gayguys #gayjock #gayhunk #gaytwink #gaysexy #gayfitness See more

#MondayMotivation - Trauma creates a sense of mistrust. Today, I found myself in that headspace about someone I care a lot about. I heard myself say, "You need to trust him." Then a nagging voice in my head says, "No Mary, you need to trust yourself." . . . Regardless of what happens in any other area of my life, I need to trust that I have the wherewithal to withstand and eventually rise from any adversity. I need to trust myself that I deserve good things happening for me.... I need to trust that I am a badass. . . . Do you trust yourself? Namaslay. @jklphoto . . . . . . . . . #gay #gayboy #gayguy #gayman #gaypride #gaylove #gaystagram #gaymen #gaylife #gays #gayfollow #gayhot #gayselfie #gayfit #gayuk #gaycute #gaydude #gaybear #gaybeard #gaycouple #gayboys #gaymuscle #gayguys #gayjock #gayhunk #gaytwink #gaysexy #gayfitness See more

Hi y’all. TGIF. Lots gonna on so keeping it short. Still in that leap of faith stage and boy is it liberating to be in this state of complete surrender. More will be revealed. Have a great weekend. . . . . .... . . . . #gay #gayboy #gayguy #gayman #gaypride #gaylove #gaystagram #gaymen #gaylife #gays #gayfollow #gayhot #gayselfie #gayfit #gayuk #gaycute #gaydude #gaybear #gaybeard #gaycouple #gayboys #gaymuscle #gayguys #gayjock #gayhunk #gaytwink #gaysexy #gayfitness See more